Downfall

Have you felt depressed. Have you felt that the world is falling down on you? because I just did. Exams are coming and teachers began to choose their potential students for different subjects. I am not one of them and maybe I will never be one of them. I was sitting in the front when one of my teachers called up students to discuss with them their current status. I am not deaf so I can hear " Potential for A1... can get.. potenial.. not good...targets.."He called up all his star pupil first which is kinda obvious since I heard potential like approximately over ten times. Finally, he called me. I didn't hear potential. When he asked me for my target for Add ma,. I replied with A2. He commented that I was Ambitious. Which mean that I don't have the capabilty to get the result. I am not trying to brag or anything, don't get me wrong but hello! I am the top 3 in class for Add ma! How can those words flew from his mouth that easily? Maybe I haven't perform well but Ambitious is totally a harsh word! I was at the brink of my tears. The words hurt me badly as though slashing my heart. I had to hold back my tear to prevent from breaking down.My mood of the day is affected after that. In addition to that, I felt that everyone is progessing, in English, there are more and more As students producing but why am I still at the tail end? I felt so depressed. I am going berserk. This is really hurful and it is really unbearable. I have no resoute but go to the books and seek for solace.