Minty-smell air in the midnight

Our parents doesn't seem to understand us.
I believe the root cause is that the world have changed. In fact, the world is ever-changing. When it is our turns, we might also not understand what goes in the mind of a teen.
My family was watching secret garden when mum snickered at the sight of a teen suffering social disorder(social phobia). She just couldn't understand why teen are going though all these.
Technologies advance, we the teen are receiving more than what our parents are facing in their youth. Changes come with advantages and disadvantages.

Advantages: We got a wide variety of technologies: Computer, Camera, Phone , MP3 and etc.
These actually coloured our lives with entertainment and luxury. However, these luxury will definitely result in negative effects such as getting addicted to computer games and becoming more reliance on technologies and etc.

Indeed, our parents' youth and ours are spent differently. In fact, the difference is drastic. Thus, this is understandable that parents don't get us.

Well, ok that is a bit of discussion.

Let's get back about talking about my day.

Erm. I got my exam scripts back and i know the grades.
I must say that I am quite disappointed with my result.
It is common test and I expected all my grades to be B3 and above.
Sadly, things weren't going smoothly as I thought.
I got
C6 for English.
B3 for Ema.
C6 for Ama.
B4 for Phy.
A1 for Chem
C6 for Geog
C5 for SS
A2 for Art.

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A1 for Chem
A2 for Art
B3 for Ema.
B4 for Phy.
C5 for SS
C6 for English.
C6 for Ama.
C6 for Geog

The grades are awfully ugly. I got so many(3Cs) and only got 2 Bs and 2 As.It is so shameful!Although these grades have not finalised, i won;t expect to see much changes. Those underlined are those, I am truly disappointed with. I always have the mindset of " You sow what you yield" but all my efforts didn't show on the grades. I AM LOUSY! USELESS!

I worked so hard for Geog . for Phy. for Ama for CL for so many. Yet what I got in returned is these.
I HATE MYSELF!

I guess I have no one to turn to for consolation so I turn to blog. Haiz. All the people surrounded me with grades like As. How am I going to seek consolation is this way!!?

English really make me depressed. People come from the same band as me last year, can get 30/50 for CT and why can't I ?

I feel so USeless.

Is it because of my high expectations? I don't think so. It is CT and I should get better grades.
I am going for O level and why am I still getting this?

Is this showing the standard of my O level.?

I don't know!

I am lost and got no one to turn to for heart to heart talk.
I am ALONE!I feel so WEAK AND LONELY. I AM LOST!

Geez. I have to admit that I hatred is starting to grow in me towards those who scored well in CT.

In conclusion. I AM STUPID AND USELESS!